Fear

Fear is a funny thing really. Fear can keep you bound, stuck in one place.

You can fear something better.
You can fear something worse.
You can fear love.
You can fear hate.
You can fear loss.
You can fear gain.
There's really nothing you can't fear.

You can fear leaving the one you're with, even if you're miserable, because of the unknown.
You can fear moving on from someone you love because of the what ifs and what could have been's.
You can fear loving someone more than you loved the person before them because what if it falls apart again.
You can fear falling in love again because then you feel somehow like you lied to all the people before them that you loved.

I know because I've felt all of those. I can tell you I was afraid to move on. I'm scared to love again. I'm terrified of falling in love and things falling apart again.
However I'm also so scared that I'll never feel that kind of love again... and that fear it drives me on. That fear is why I'm trying to learn to live in the moment. I want to love and I want to be loved for every crazy, weird, imperfect part of me and who I am.

I'm brave enough to admit I'm afraid. Are you?