Planning, Buying, and Waiting

   Since I realized my feelings for Jordan I knew I would marry him. He has been amazing to me and my son. He has been understanding and forgiving. I am allowed to be myself; happy, sad, depressed, overwhelmed, you name it he's there with open arms. He never speaks down to me. He never abuses me in any way. He has been the opposite of everything I have been use to.
   I've been planning our wedding for nearly 2 years, which I know a lot of people would say is insane especially since we aren't even engaged yet, think what you will. At first I was planning these unrealistic decorations, places, dresses, etc and as the time went on I started to think with a level head. I became aware that though those things are beautiful its one day and there's no reason to spend that much money on one day. I decided to think rationally; plan budgets, cut out the unnecessary, buy things that can be reused, DIY whatever I can, ask family do to what they can, etc. Now basically all the planning is done.
    Yes, once again we are not engaged yet, but the ring is picked out and the proposal will be soon, obviously I don't know when, that's his job. The date is set for the wedding and I simply cannot wait!
    We've started the buying process for the wedding. Its a lot better to buy ahead of time instead of all at once, much easier on the bank account. So far I have the table runners, the tent (just in case of rain), plates, plasticware, napkins, ice bucket and cups. The cake topper and table covers are on their way.  I'm making my own bouquet and I've bought the flowers for that, real flowers that will both make my garden look amazing and make my wedding bouquet gorgeous. As I said everything should be able to be reused and I absolutely love that! The location is set. I'm 95% sure I know what dress I'll be wearing given it's still available at the proper time to buy it. 
    I have planned this wedding with input from Jordan and with plenty of help from Pinterest and Google.
Amazon, Wal-Mart, Party City, David's Bridal and Macy's seem to be the places that I will get everything from.
   I didn't want a traditional wedding. I've done traditional now I want the wedding I want while not denying him or his family a real ceremony. I was sitting in bed planning the wedding one night before bed and when I went to sleep I had a dream; it was my wedding in the location we had already chosen, it was beautiful, cost friendly, simple, and intimate. I woke up knowing this was exactly what I wanted. I talked through it with Jordan and he has no problems with my ideas. I know that some will be offended for not getting to be apart of it or not getting invited, but they aren't paying for it we are.     
   I have enjoyed planning our wedding and picking out the items for the wedding. I cannot wait to see it all come together!