Hindsight 20/20

   It's funny looking back on life at all the things I'd wanted before. How much I begged and pleaded. How much I cried when those guys broke my heart. Now I'm glad they did. At the time I wanted them so bad. I would have done anything for them and anything to get them, but hindsight is always 20/20 and I'm so glad things turned out the way they have.
   All the guys I'd wanted before never treated me even half as good as my boyfriend does. I would gladly go through every heartache again to end up with him because I don't think I could have ever fully appreciated how great he is without going through all I've been through. All that pain helped me to see the beauty in all the things he does. My feelings for him are far more mature than the feelings I had for the guys before him. Not to say he's perfect, but really who is? 

   It almost feels like he and I have been together for years then it hits me, "Oh yeah, I did go through all that" "My divorce was only 3 months ago" "My separation was only 10 months ago" "Oh right, I did like that guy" "That did happen didn't it?" Honestly at this point all of that feels like it happened in another life. For most of it I'm sitting back all "What the hell was I thinking? I'm so stupid" but hey you live and learn. I had to go wild for a bit before I could see what I really needed. Funny enough during part of my going wild what I needed was right in front of me and I was too blind to see it or maybe I was just too scared.. Either way I finally have what I need and I'm happy to call him mine 💗