You're Gonna Miss This

I cannot explain to you the love a parent has for their child. I can tell you it's overwhelming. There's nothing you've experienced before that I can point out and say, "Yes, it's like that" because it's not like any of it, it's so different. It's a greater love than you've ever known.
Tonight I had an emotional Mommy Moment, well more than one, but let's focus on the one. Tonight my son fell asleep between my boyfriend and I on the dual recliner (bring I'm the first emotional Mommy moment and all the awws and feels) As Seth lay there I went to get his room ready, fan on, closet light on, blankets pulled back, etc. the whole time thinking it's going to be tough getting him off the recliners in the position he's in. When I returned back to the recliners I realized just how big he's gotten and it's been a while since he's fallen asleep anywhere but his bed and as I carried him to his room it hit me, I wont be able to pick him up and put him in bed for much longer.
Another beloved mommy moment will soon be gone because eventually he'll outgrow that too, but I'm his mommy and I don't outgrow those moments. I cling to those moments and cry as he outgrow each thing, because though I know he has to grow up I will forever miss that precious baby that I carried for 9 months, that baby that I delivered, the baby I brought home, the baby I taught to walk and talk, the 1 year old I watched run around on his 1st birthday who'd ate far to much cake, threw up, but kept smiling and running anyways, the toddler I watched slowly learn the words to You Are My Sunshine and would attempt to sing along with me, to the boy who now occasionally asks me to sing him "that song". I no longer get to hold him and rock him to sleep, he rarely ever wants to just sit and cuddle like I'd been able to do with him as a baby, I don't get to just hold him and sing him "that song" bit the moments when he asks... those moments my heart melts