Engaged, Married, Homeowner, Happy

   If you've been following at all I'm sure you've heard I had been married, had a son, got divorced, went through more heartache, met a great guy March 10, 2017 who was dating someone else, we became best friends and after his relationship fell apart we started hanging out more, I knew he liked me (he wouldn't admit it) but I was too afraid to ruin him or me or have a broken heart again, made a mistake where I could have lost him which caused me to realize he was The One and so I finally gave in and Jordan and I started dating August 22, 2017.

   In September 2019 we officially bought a house together. When we had finished moving all of our stuff from the rental house he proposed, September 26, 2019. 

   Our plan was to get married June 13, 2020 with the "normal" big ceremony, but my anxiety wasn't willing to wait that long and honestly I didn't want a big ceremony; I'd already been married before and had the big ceremony and I didn't enjoy it all back then anyways. We "rushed" the wedding and got married March 14, 2020 at the park under a shelter with snow falling in the background; my son, our parents, my friend/photographer and the officiant being the only ones allowed to attend.   

  Today its around 4 months of being married and life is pretty great. I still deal with PTSD from my previous marriage and of course I still have my depression and anxiety, but none of that is something I can fix. He's always very understanding, though I'm sure it's frustrating at times. He's amazing with me, my son and our 2 "furbabies" (cats) Claire and Cutie.  

   He's great about trying to teach my son, Seth, be it normal school related things or random facts and such. They practice sword fighting with Shinai Bamboo practice swords that Jordan bought. He helps him read and spell and tried to help teach him to tie his shoes.   

   Plain and simple, I could not have asked for a better guy. I've never felt so much for one person, not in this way. Without him I was lost. 

   I hope for each person who has been abused in their marriage/relationship, no matter what form, that they can find the kind of love Jordan has given me. Don't give up hope, they really aren't all the same.