Fear

   As selfish as it sounds, after what I've been through, what I fear losing the most is myself.. again.
  I tend to lose myself in the person I like or love.
  I lost myself and made everything about my married name.
  I lived a life for 26 years to please everyone else. I was to scared to be me. I was scared to disappoint.

   I know what it's like to live selflessly. I know what it's like to not know who you really are. I know what it's like to feel alone. I know what it's like to fear to go against the grain...

  Oh, but once I did... such a freedom came from it. I lost a lot at first to find myself, but I gained so much more. I never want to lose myself again!