Not Overwhelmed Just Saddened

  Today I'm not finding myself overwhelmed with sorrow over who I lost. I came to the realization that losing someone that lies to you, manipulates you, someone who's capable of cheating and unfortunately much more (still very shocked and upset by learning this)... that loss is a gain.
   I find myself saddened at the lost potential, he did have potential. However someone like that won't change. Not until/unless they realize that they need the change and they must WANT (as in want it more than anything else) to change. That requires years upon years of therapy and no one should be with that person for a long time.
   I'm not saying I won't at some point find myself overwhelmed again. I can tell you if I do it will be at the lost possibilities, the missed good memories, the future I thought was possible,... Those kinds of things.
   I will miss looking into those eyes.

   But I will find better; much, much better. No lies, no games, no cheating, no manipulation, someone who will want me and only me, who will give me the title and attention I deserve, who will spoil me with affection,.... Someone like that who I feel a connection to has a hella love coming their way and I can't wait.