My Decision

   You made your decision.. now I've made mine. It wasn't an easy decision to make. However after my like months worth of blogging therapy (that didn't take a month to complete), your decision, some realization, and remembering how you've made me feel I know what I have to do.

   Did/do I love you, yes. Did/do I wish things turned out differently, yes. Did/do I wish you were a better man, yes. But all my hopes, wishing, dreams, etc. won't change that fact that it is what it is because of the decisions you've made. 

   You see one of my realizations is that the above song fits you damn near perfectly. You seem to find it impossible to open your mouth without lying and I for one HATE lies. You've lied to me, you've lied to her, you've lied to friends,... it's pathetic.

So I have to say goodbye.

   I have no regrets you were just another tough lesson in life. You and the one before you are the reason Meghan Trainor's "Title" will be like my new motto.

   Part of me was feeling like I was betraying you and even myself by liking someone, that for the record I liked before all this but I'd stopped thinking about it the second we started talking because that's the kind of woman I am, but it's not a betrayal to either of us because you made your choice and now I need to find someone who knows how to treat a woman right. There's a chance the guy I like may not be interested in me, but someone will be and they'll treat me better than you did.. that won't be hard to do.

   I hope you have a great life, I really do, but if you stay on your current path I can promise you that you won't. Which is something you should have easily figured out on your own by now. You know I didn't ask for much, I wanted the title and your time. I wasn't asking to move in, I wasn't asking to get married. I just wanted to be yours, I wanted years with you, I wanted to grow with you,.. for most people having someone who truly cares and really wants those things.. damn that's a dream come true, but apparently you enjoy misery. Do yourself a favor pick another path before its to late. Pick another path so that you can have a great life. No one deserves to live in misery.

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