Go Ask Your Therapist

   How do you go from telling our friend that "I guess she couldn't make it" (to break) in a sad way to this?
   Like it or not you like me.  You may lie to her, but I know the truth and I bet she does too. I don't know why you think lying helps anything. You really should learn to tell the truth. No relationship truly works without the truth. If she couldn't get past that you like me then she shouldn't be with you, that simple.
   You want to know why your head is so messed up? It's the lies, its holding onto the past, it's refusing to do what needs to be done, it's your messed up definition of what love is,... Go ask a therapist why you do all that.