A Real Connection

Only twice in my life can I say I had a real connection. Both amazingly happened within a short time of each other, T and Th. I've never felt the things I felt with them; that sense of home, safety, comfort, trust, etc. When I fell for them I fell fast and hard and I've never done that with anyone else before them. I know I didn't know much about either of them, but you don't have to know much to love someone. 

In no way was I saying, "Oh hey lets go get married!" Hell no. Been there done that. It's going to take someone really damn special and a lot of time before I decide to do that again; at least being with them a couple years. Here's my thought; together after 2-3 years he can propose and after 4 or 5 years together then marriage would be acceptable. I've already had one failed marriage I don't want another. 

Th mentioned something about changing my last name (in a proposal sounding way) while we were at work. Boy proposes fast LMAO 

If he'd get his head out of his ass one day I wouldn't mind stealing his last name; after years of getting to know each other and growing together. 

I was very surprised by the connection I had with him. I ended up very glad that we shared this connection. He helped me so much. Bad times, sad times, fearful times, .. he made me smile and feel cared about. And then he... well i guess it doesn't matter what he did, I'm getting tired of saying it, only part that matters is he broke my heart.  It makes Miranda Lambert's song "Tin Man" feel so much more personal. I can't imagine a world without love, but I'm tired of being hurt... I get exactly where she's coming from.